I have always been an open book about my life – until a few years ago. At some point, I was going through private struggles and started feeling embarrassed to be vulnerable to really share my innermost feelings on many things- when writing it used to be therapy for me. I think that having been hurt, I was afraid to be hurt again. To expose my soft inner belly again was a scary thing.
This refusal to open up led to me feeling that my posts were too shallow, and I felt no real desire to continue writing in my blog much. Every time I did, it just felt like it was missing something. So for a while, I was posting maybe once a month on my blog…then it slowly turned into once per YEAR – And I used to post 2-3 times a day!
Yet, bottling up my thoughts day after day was also very hard for me. I desired to write about everything, to express those feelings, and to share my experiences with other people….and still do.
So I have decided that I am going to open up and be vulnerable again. No longer will my insecurities determine the content of my writing. I will write straight from the heart and hopefully touch other hearts in the process. I know I am not the only one who feels the way I do on a number of things!
Have you ever gone through this in your life? Let me know your thoughts about your struggles that you have dealt with when it comes to expressing yourself to others.